#idk man idk im just so tired i wanna sleep more but also not really but also i just wanna have a moment to fucking BREATHE.
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deoidesign Ā· 2 months ago
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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)
We all start somewhere!
#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later#my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day#and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night#anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body#and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft#i have so many things i intend to post and then forget#it's a wonder I post anything#i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through#like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it#art growth#this was in 2010 btw#i started highschool in 2011#I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever#like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me#man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time#if my phone made typos you didn't see it
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icedmilkwater Ā· 2 months ago
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not even trying to sound like a complete pothead but these past couple of weeks (person who says this every two weeks) have been an absolute mad house of just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on and i feel like id fare so much better if i was just stoned. like im doing ok but id be doing better high. argh
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cyberm4n Ā· 9 months ago
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HI I LOVED UR HYPERSEXUAL FEM READER HEADCANONS UR WRITING IS SO GOOD
Soo I'm here to request the vees (mainly vox but idc) x hypersexual Fem reader pleasee šŸ˜­šŸ™
if not that's okay and I hope you have a nice day/night!! feel free to delete this lol
-xoxo, Ari
THANK YOU <3333 i love the vees and ive been looking for an excuse to write them so this is perfect
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vees with hypersexul reader
going with the same scenario as last time- you've just finished a round and (char) is spent but you're already ready to go again
怊ā€” vox ā€”怋
ā–  he seems like a 2 rounds kinda guy so after that second round and yall are just laying there he is SPENT
ā–  so when you roll over to lay on his chest like "one more time?" with a little smile on your face, as if yall did not just violently fuck it takes him a moment
ā–  he's spent, so spent. but he really wants to please you
ā–  he'd get used to it tbh. like he's mentally prepared everytime now but maybe sometimes he can do a round 3
ā–  he'd resort to toys i think, only the best for his girl <3
ā–  there's also something he loves about getting to hold you and watch you writhe in pleasure and he just gets to watch
ā–  he'd always take your preferences into mind with toys too. like if you want smth specific he's got it for you
ā–  i feel like he might prefer if yall are spent at the same time so the foreplay goes CRAZY
ā–  like it's not just foreplay it's actual rounds of getting you to cum before the main event yk
ā–  or sometimes he'll just ask if it'd be okay to be done for the night when he is
ā–  he doesn't mind either way but he'd definitely want to communicate about it
ā–  so yeah it might take him a little bit to adjust bit he'd be just fine!
怊ā€” valentino ā€”怋
ā–  okay let's be real this man fucks A LOT so he can probably do like. 3 or 4 lengthy rounds before he's tapped out
ā–  it's making me giggle about it but like okay val is a kinky guy, and like especially if the first time yall do anything it's a little bit rougher he is SHOCKED when you're down for more
ā–  he's prly into something like overstim where normally you kinda gotta reel from it after so when he's done and it takes you like. a minute or two to be like "do you wanna do it again?" he judt looks down at you so confused
ā–  he takes a moment, blinking. he'd definitely ask if you're kidding or smth and then finding out you're not he has to take a moment
ā–  like, he finds it fucking awesome but jesus christ he's finally met hsi match
ā–  he might use toys on you or go down on you, depends how he's feeling tbh
ā–  i think he'd lean towards going down on you, idk he just seems like he'd be a bit of a munch.
ā–  and if you're okay with it when yall fuck in the future he's constantly just seeing how far you can go before you're spent
ā–  long story short he's totally chill abt it when he gets used to it and thinks it's fucking great
怊ā€” velvette ā€”怋
ā–  okay im literally giggling and kicking my feet while typing this
ā–  she seems like a 2 or 3 round kind of gal
ā–  idk femxfem sex doesn't really go in rounds ime but like. yk.
ā–  so after she's spent, she's like so ready to cuddle up and sleep. but then you're caressing her cheek, nuzzling into her neck. "again?" you murmur and she has to take a moment
ā–  cause like, she's just super surprised you're still ready for another.
ā–  she'd ask the most questions abt it. like she'd want to just know more so she can support you better
ā–  she'd go down on you tho! anytime! she definitely has toys but she seems like the type to be more inclined to eat you out
ā–  if she gets tired of that she'd use a toy on you. but she stays engaged the whole time, super attentive.
ā–  she's a service switch so like getting to keep you pleased like this makes her feel good and she doesn't mind at all
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ā–  once again, all of them would embrace it and they do not mind at all!
ā–  if you guys with the poly hc for the vees i think it just makes it so much better for them to know it's really hard to burn you out
ā–  i loved this request ty <3
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luffyvace Ā· 10 months ago
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āœŒļøŽ Sitting in Zoroā€™s Lap hcs āœŒļøŽ
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I just felt like doing these<3 I donā€™t usually do concepts and Iā€™m testing out the waters so theyā€™ll likely be short ;3 also I wanna do more than just relationship hcs bc itā€™ll be more fun āœŒļøŽ
enjoy zoro simps cuz yā€™all definitely be on my acc šŸ’–
At first he feels itā€™s kinda pointless
like heā€™s thinking ā€œwhy would you wanna sit on my lap?!ā€”sit on a chair or- just- somewhere else!...even the floor or something idk?!!ā€
but however you somehow convince him to let you, whether thatā€™s bribery (swords or alcohol), sitting on him anyway or schmoozing him over into letting you,
you did it!!
And thatā€™s all that matters :)
he probably got tired of your relentless request and just let you eventually
While you sit on him heā€™s usually sleeping sitting up, drinking alcohol or just relaxing with his eyes closed
When you sit facing him itā€™s a little more comfortable for him
he prefers it that way
sometimes you lay your head on his shoulder/chest and fall asleep on him
heā€™ll scoff either way but he gets a bit annoyed if he was trying to do something that requires getting up
Like training for example
If he wasnā€™t too busy in the first place then he just scoffs and probably takes a nap himself
if heā€™s not tired he waits for you to get up
he doesnā€™t like to stir you from sleep but if itā€™s important like a ship attack heā€™s kinda rough about doing so- šŸ˜€
bro he basically yanks you up and yells your name
not because heā€™s trying to be mean šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø
Just the fact that if an attack comes your way you wonā€™t be able to dodgeā€”and protecting someone isnā€™t his thing when fighting, he always tells you to go hide if your weak
uh anyway šŸ˜—
When you sit with your back to his chest its comfy but like donā€™t be surprised if he picks you up and turns you around (i donā€™t wanna hear anyone saying theyā€™re too heavy bc you obviously must not have seen the weights he lifts on a daily)
sitting like thatā€™s kinda annoying bc having to crane your neck back and to the side is not fun šŸ˜¬šŸ˜€
plus you probably hit his jaw a lot-
Or things like
1) he bites his tongue
2) his teeth hit your head (and it hurts for both of you)
3) he spits his alcohol in your hair (when you hit his jaw with your head)
4) you hit your head on his nose
So yeah this position is less common for you guys
Bonus if your hair is long
then he gets his fingernails stuck to it too :)
he prefers you donā€™t sit on his lap in public
mostly because he doesnā€™t like the stares that come with it šŸ’ā€ā™€ļø
he just feels awkward
If you once again somehow convince him to let you in public howeverā€¦..
itā€™ll be the type where he man spreads and you sit on one leg facing him
that way he has a bit more space to move and one of his arms is free
just in case an attack comes that he needs to block
orrrrrr just for simply drinking alcohol šŸ˜‹
on the merry/sunny heā€™s more likely to cave in
especially since itā€™s just the strawhats
unless they make fun of him or smth (especially robin) then he doesnā€™t mind as much
plus yā€™all can have some privacy in the crows nest most likely
ngl he pretty comfy to sit on
unless your really tall or smth heā€™s prob bigger than you
so itā€™s not like yā€™all are uncomfortable or squished
zoro after time skip is low key more comfy because you know that dark green coat he wears?
yeah it like bends to create a little chair when he manspreads
and idk if you know what Iā€™m talking about but those who get it do šŸ’—šŸ‘
Does he end up liking it?
yes :)
yes he does. :)
Im trying to branch out and do more concepts because itā€™s more interesting for me to write, and you to read so why not šŸ˜Š
Hopefully my zoro stans enjoyed !! <3 āš”ļøšŸ—”
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quodekash Ā· 7 months ago
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I didnt get enough sleep last night but its not my fault qtoey fuckin kissed
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hes literally the most babygirl in this entire show
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HIM FRANTICALLY CLEANING UP I LOVE HIM SM
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I love this more than I can ever possibly describe
it's so silly
so goofy
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HES SO GOOFY
they should kiss again I think
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babes your voice just got three octaves higher, do better at lying next time
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who the FUCK is this guy and why is he being introduced in episode 7 of 16 (apparently 16??? it's wild that this show is supposed to be 16 episodes long (according to mdl?) cos we're not even halfway through the show and 2 out of 4 of the main couples have officially kissed, and 1 is officially together. which is insane when you think about how msp is 12 episodes long and tinngun didnt properly kiss til thE END OF THE LAST FUCKING EPISODE)
(no im never getting over this, they COULD have counted 67 FUCKING TIMES throughout the show and they fucking DIDNT)
anyway this guy is probably gonna be a main part of the drama that's gonna go down in order to keep this show long enough šŸ˜­
why cant we just keep the light and fluffy show as it is and keep spreading joy and dopamine straight to my bones
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two adorable little munchkins standing next to each other
theyre my sons
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THAT LITTLE GIGGLE I CANT
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whAT rEAlLY???
he asked if he could hit on you, then asked if he could KISS you, AND THEN YALL FUCKIN MADE OUT IN A HAUNTED HOUSE
AND THEN WHEN YOU SAW HIM TODAY, HE MADE SILLY KISSY LIPS AT YOU
so I suggest you all give up on this "plan", and change to this real plan: march up to him, ask him out, plant a kiss on his cheek, take your fuckin artist easels and canvases to a fuckin beach at sunset, paint and make out
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oml pun's an astrology girlie
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HOLY FUCK ITS HAPPENING
what the fuck no why does it look like its gonna get angsty, I cant do this :(
dont make me watch toey sob, I dont want that, I want them to make out again :((
im so confused dude why is he so angry
I genuinely dont get it
I mean im watching at 2x speed so I can get through this quickly so I might've missed some dialogue somewhere or smth, but still
why's he angry
idk why he's angry but I do know one thing: satang is too fucking good at portraying anguish
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im too tired to process words so im not entirely sure what he means but I think it sounds poetic so we're gonna go with that
(ahem) THATS SO BEAUTIFUL WTF
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WHAT THE FUCK
brb just gonna rip my fucking SOUL out
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"its like im sitting in a vast grassy field with a gentle breeze under a bright sky" OKAY WTF ARE THE GMM WRITERS READING MY TUMBLR POSTS OR SMTH
THATS LITERALLY HOW I DESCRIBED THE WAY WIN PROBABLY FEELS ABOUT SOUND
its why his heart doesnt beat fast for sound, he just doesnt have that kind of crush, its more of a relaxing crush, like a gentle breeze
ill fucking find the post if I can
I literally wrote an extended metaphor poem combined with a fic about it
what the fuck dude
if they're watching my posts then why havent they given us my satang and perth siblings agenda yet
and where is the markford series
gmm I know you're looking at this, answer my fucking questions guys
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I LOVE THEIR FRIEND GROUP SO FUCKING MUCH DUDE
they all just make me so happy šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
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okay but he didnt know you were milk frappe boy when hE FUCKING MADE OUT WITH YOU IN A HAUNTED HOUSE
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theyre holdin hansssss
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is what I think and want to happen about to happen
that wasnt grammar but its fine
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THEYF CYKING END IT THERE??
BUT HES ALL PUCKERED UP
HES READY
ALSO THEYRE IN A SCHOOL HALLWAY AND IT WOULD BE REALLY FUNNY
WTF
I HAVE TO WAIT A FUCKING WEEK TO FEEL JOY????
COME ON MAN
oh fuck yes next week theyre goi g to a volunteer camp
volunteer camp episodes are always comfort episodes so thjis is gonna be GOOD
PUN DID IT BC HE WANTS QTOEY TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER??? BRO HE'STHE WINGMAN OF ALL TIME
well anyway I just wanna see qtoey kiss again :(
ill rewatch that one scene in the meantime
buhbye for now my friends, see yous next week
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matthyeu Ā· 1 year ago
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driver vs. passenger prince ā€• ot9.
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pairing ā‡¢ ot9!zb1 x gn!readerĀ 
genre ā‡¢ comedy, fluff
warnings ā‡¢ none
word count ā‡¢ 1.2k (0.1-0.15k per member)
synopsis ā‡¢ do you have the luxury of being driven by the boys or do you have to drive them around?
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Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ KIM JIWOONG - 80% driver 20% passenger prince
honestly idk why heā€™s 20 passenger princeĀ 
i can only see him driving but also like no oneā€™s 100% driver sometimes you gotta give them the luxury of sittingĀ 
loves the look of driving like heā€™s always doing something with his other hand
maybe itā€™s leaning on the side while waiting at a red light or maybe itā€™s holding your handĀ 
if youā€™re just driving straight just know heā€™s gonna get touchy with you at one pointĀ 
letā€™s face it sometimes you get bored if youā€™re just driving and need something to holdĀ 
and you canā€™t hold your phone for obvious reasons (i know a lot of you do anyway)Ā 
itā€™s a good habit for him actually so heā€™s more focused on the road
though sometimes he gets a little too fixated on you
and thatā€™s when itā€™s time for you to switch because he needs some space to just watch you drive ykĀ 
because itā€™s better seeing another attractive person drive
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ ZHANG HAO -Ā 0.5% driver 99.5% passenger prince
true passenger princeĀ 
the 0.5 is for legal reasons bc i canā€™t compare him to yujin who canā€™t legally drive at allĀ 
THIS MAN HE IS PASSENGER PRINCE
like the kind you think of when you think of passenger prince
like he really loves to recline in his chair and let you drive him everywhere
and you canā€™t even complain bc whoā€™s cruel enough to let him drive??Ā 
can you really resist driving the zhang hao aroundĀ 
even if he doesnā€™t need it, you want to drive him aroundĀ 
his whole being is just asking to be driven even if itā€™s just going to the market to get something quickĀ 
heā€™s so admirable in the passenger seat so i canā€™t blame you one bit
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ SUNG HANBIN -Ā 90% driver 10% passenger prince
i know yā€™all like it when this man drivesĀ 
i see you on twt going insane & i fully understand that hanbin was just made for the driverā€™s seat
since bro drives i gotta give him the highest driver percentage like yeah it had to be doneĀ 
HEā€™S SO DRIVER THOUGH LIKE I LOOK AT HIM AND GO ā€œhmmm yes he belongs thereā€Ā 
like he seems like a good driver tooĀ 
youā€™re in good hands with him so be gladĀ 
he just loves to have you in his passenger seat doing whatever it is you do
doesnā€™t want you to have to worry about the road to pls continue scrolling on tiktok or whateverĀ 
hanbinā€™s there for youĀ 
but also be there for him bc he needs his driver breaksĀ 
he always sleeps in the passenger seat like no joke the moment he gets there heā€™s just gone LMAO
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ SEOK MATTHEW -Ā 10% driver 90% passenger prince
yes i made mattbin oppositesĀ 
yes im a mattbin supporter my favsĀ 
just had to after seeing the teasers DUHHHHĀ 
like matthewā€™s such a supportive passenger prince always holding the phone for you for directionsĀ 
telling you when to merge, exit, turn, etc.Ā 
also probably talks a lot and it helps keep you awakeĀ 
practically tells his entire life story while youā€™re going somewhere bc he wants to make sure he keeps you awakeĀ 
also points out all the the cute things on the side of the road like horses and stuffĀ 
definitely always takes notice of your condition while drivingĀ 
sees when youā€™re getting tired & will ask to switch so you can restĀ 
cautious driver but just know heā€™s slow bc of itĀ 
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ KIM TAERAE -Ā 30% driver 70% passenger prince
idc if he can actually drive heā€™s a passenger prince
he only gets the bonus points because he can actually drive
like i wanted to put him 5/95 so bad but HE CAN DRIVEĀ 
and he looks good while doing it so ig let him drive (ple im so excited for camp zerobaseone)
ANYWAY he kinda doesnā€™t care who drives likeĀ 
if youā€™re tired, heā€™ll driveĀ 
if you wanna drive, heā€™ll let you driveĀ 
literally the person who can drive but will only drive if the circumstances are necessary
but thatā€™s FINE because he enjoys sitting next to you while drivingĀ 
mainly because he can turn on the radio and attempt to serenade youĀ 
sometimes it helps you when youā€™re sleepy on long car trips lol
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ SHEN QUANRUI (RICKY) -Ā 85% driver 15% passenger prince
totally a driverĀ 
doesnā€™t matter how good he is he wants to drive and will like not let you drive tbh
heā€™s always getting those damn keys
he loves being able to drive you around and making you his lil passenger royaltyĀ 
spoils you a lot with coffee or whatever else you wantĀ 
ask and you shall receive fr!!Ā 
if you asked him to drive you around at 2 am he would (wink wink spoiler)Ā 
like jiwoong, heā€™s the type who fr likes how he looks when he drivesĀ 
for him, he would drive exclusively with one hand just because of thatĀ 
but sometimes yk he can get tired so thatā€™s where you swoop in to help himĀ 
gotta return the favor somehow amiriteĀ 
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ KIM GYUVIN -Ā 25% driver 75% passenger prince
wants to be a driver so bad but you wonā€™t let him after he almost crashed into a tree
heā€™s practically begging you to let him drive but you donā€™t wanna die soonĀ 
so heā€™s always either whining or doing something random in the passenger seatĀ 
you donā€™t even know what heā€™s doing sometimes bc you block it all outĀ 
he would probably distract you & almost get yā€™all killed from the passenger seat tooĀ 
but heā€™s just having fun. how can you be mad at him?? (unless you actually almost crash, then please get mad)Ā 
youā€™re the one taking his driver fun away so you shall suffer this wayĀ 
itā€™s either you get scared shitless in the passenger seat or get constantly annoyed in the driverā€™s seatĀ 
pick your poison!!Ā 
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ PARK GUNWOOK -Ā 10% driver 90% passenger prince
he canā€™t drive legally yet but he probably would want to take the wheel sometimes
like the moment he is able heā€™s probably going to want to try to driveĀ 
for now though he has to sit back and be driven
it would probably change when heā€™s able to actually driveĀ 
like 40/60
because in his heart he still loves being able to not worry about the cars on the streetĀ 
pls let him drive sometimes though heā€™s desperate
like if youā€™re on a road trip & need to switch he will be so eagerĀ 
he wants to give back to the person whoā€™s always driving him around so let him!!Ā 
Ų¹Ė–āŗš–¤ćƒŸ HAN YUJIN - 0% driver 100% passenger prince
he canā€™t even drive legally
heā€™s a baby like literallyĀ 
thatā€™s the reason heā€™s the only 100% because no one can beat the literal minorĀ 
he loves being spoiled to be driven everywhere
like heā€™s ready in the car whenever you wanna come
super convincing so like even if you donā€™t want to drive him youā€™ll end up doing it
itā€™s youngest privileges like he has the face to convince you to drive him to 7 eleven at 3 a.m. because he wants candyĀ 
you will fall for him every single time and he knows it
thatā€™s why he always bothers you at obscure times to come pick him up
he lives true passenger prince lifestyle because he controls you (his driver) too easily
in conclusion, zb1 is a group of passenger princes.Ā 
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lycankeyy Ā· 1 month ago
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Okay here's the whole thing I filled out with boyf in-character enjoy his one total braincell if he's lucky. I'm putting zero effort into formatting this bc tumblr is glitchy on my phone blank template is here
(cw: sexual humor. also a bunch of intentional typos and gratuitous swearing)
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1. Okay, first question: whatā€™s your name, age, and gender?
- they call me boyfriend im 19 and i sap the gender out of the music
2. How would you describe yourself, personality-wise?
- fuckkk man idk. im p chill i think ig im pretty cool. pretty swag pretty gamer
3. Whatā€™s a typical day like for you?
- welll I wake up at like. 11 usually at earliest and I hang out w one of my partners sometimes I watch movies w em or work on music. not a lot going on usually
4. How do you wind down at the end of the day? Do you even wind down?
- most of the time i literally just wait until i crash out sometimes gf and peeks gotta drag me to bed lol
5. What is your earliest memory?
- UHHHHH oh god uhhh. I think. When I was like five we went to a festival or smth and we went on one of those twirly things and I made my dad spin the thing so hard I threw up LMAO
6. What is/was your relationship with your parents?
- i mean p good i think but we dont rly tlak anymore thats mostly my fault tho
7. What do you do when youā€™re bored?
- succumb to the madness mostly
8. Do you regret anything youā€™ve done?
- i mean not like currently
9. Do you dress to be functional or fashionable?
- bro i wear the same exact fucking outfit every day to be honest with you lol. It's not like I'm fuckin going anywhere
10. Who are your best friends? How did you meet them?
- DUUUDE assuming my partners don't count gotta shout out my man darnell we've been workin on a collab ep recently it goes hard as fuckkkkk. we met back in the stupid therapy program back in middle school he introduced me to pico n nene
11. Have any siblings? If so, what is your relationship?
- yea got a big sister and a lil bro. they're both sweet but kinda clueless tbh. technically got other stuff goin on too but im kinda worried that ill get like the government on my ass if i talk abt it
12. What is your job? Is it tiring or difficult?
- closest thinf ive got to a job is music ig and nah. really wouldn't rather be doing anything else even if it payed more tbh. when I get burnt out I wanna die but thafs not a big deal lmao
13. When youā€™re going through a rough time, do you seek help or consolation from others?
- on a scale of liek paper cut to nearly died how rough are we talking
14. How easy is it for others to gain your trust?
- ive been told im pretty trusting but i feel like any person whos meant to hurt me was pretty upfront abt it so ā”(Ā“āˆ€ļ½€)ā”Œ
15. What is your sexuality, if you donā€™t mind me asking?
- all the time all the time
16. Do you have a significant other? What are they like?
- "a" singular. lol. lmao even. bros asking if I got one singular partner lmao try two bitch and thyere the best most important people in the world
17. Have you ever lost a loved one?
- not like perminently
18. How often do you act on impulse? Does it ever backfire?
- lsiten if i do it all the time then like statisicly it only backfires like 40% of the time okay
19. Do you believe in ghosts?
- I believe in everyone bro
20. How about aliens?
- aliens are hisyorically very mean to me but ig i can just then believe that they can be better people. or aliens
21. What traits do you value the most in others?
- uhhh probably like being just nice ig? idk i think it can take a lot more effort than people think to be considerate and stuff I appreciate when people are nice even if they have a reason not to be
22. Do you dream often? What are your dreams like?
- i used to not to but somethings happened and now I get them all the time. don't really want to talk about it they're mostly just weird
23. Are you a light or heavy sleeper? Do you sleep in?
- my partners say im such a heavy sleeper that one time i slept through gf falling off the bed in the middle of the night but I was asleep so I can't cofnirm
24. Okay, this is a bit personal, butā€¦ Have you ever (uh) ā€œdone the doā€?
- dude like u wouldn't believe
25. Do you have any pets?
- nah but I think it would be cool to have a guinea pig they seem chill and I appreciate their vibes
26. Ever been drunk before? How often do you drink?
- i try not to toooooooo much but i think i have a hard time telling when too much is too much. dont tell my parents
27. Are you respectful to authority figures?
- they only have as much authority as you give them. manipulate a landlord today
28. What kinds of movies do you like you watch?
- https://youtu.be/HgjyQ0_coJo?si=L5Bzhey5cxaoNpWU
29. Do you have any guilty pleasures?
- ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ ā–ˆā–ˆ one time nene found it in my dresser and I almost DIED wait was this question not about sex stuff
30. What would you say is the happiest memory of your life?
- ohh thats hard uhh. happiest is hard to qualify i think. I think I'm happiest whenever I think abt waking up next to my partners
31. How about your worst memory?
- thats a good question
32. What did you aspire to be when you were young? Did that dream change as you grew up?
- i didn't think I'd be fuckign anythang
33. How far would you be willing to go to get what you want?
- u gotta quantify what I want here tbh. is it like a chocolate bar or one billion dollars. cuz id kill someone for a billion dollars. honestly i might also kill someone for a chocolate bar but like not as badly
34. What is sure to ruin your day?
- idk nearly dying again probably
35. Do you have any nervous habits?
- uhhh sometimes i mess with my hair and when i get rly upset i pull at it til it hurts. i used to scratch my face a lot when i was upset too but it freaks ppl out so i try not to if i can help it
36. Play video games often?
- i tryyyyy but i get distracted so fast i play a game and im like oh shit this reminds me of another thing i was gonna play n then i go play that and then I never FINISH ANYTHIGN
37. What kind of things do you laugh at?
- https://youtu.be/47EOSLWu-EI?si=kuzPv2Vndl91Oj3C
38. Favorite genre of music?
- BROOOO ok gonna be basic as shit and say breakcore. also a huge fan of speedcore and drill & bass but breakcore is my home. i wishhh it wasn't called this but my favorite like subgenre of breakcore is probs lolicore not for any fuckin weird reason but just bc the way the vocals are usually mixed scratches my brain sooooooo fuking good. listen to various types of ads by loli in early 20s and youll get it. i fucking love experimental breakcore my favorite album rossz csillag alatt szĆ¼letett mixes breakcore+dr&b w classical and it's sooooo fucking good it's SO good i need to learn more fuckin instrument plug ins so I can make shit like that. in general i just love music that feels like it's fuckin drilling it's way into youre brain and rewiring it i want the music to fuckin labotomize me fr
39. What do you think your spirit animal would be if you had one?
- idk maybe a rat i like rats. dude imagine if i was a rat like ritz we could have cheese together. we can do that anyway but it would be more awesome
40. Have an accent of any kind?
- yea autism
41. Chess or checkers?
- checkers i have no idea how to play chess but it sounds convoluted as fuk
42. Do you feel sentimentality toward a particular object?
- i love my laptop even if I get a new computer and this thing breaks completely im keeping this laptop ily laptop
43. Are you generally pretty secretive, or are you an open book?
- im like accidentally secretive i dont even try like wtf do you mean im supposed to talk about shit
44. What are you most embarrassed about?
- i feel like this was addressed in the nene thing
45. What are your deepest fears?
- have you ever seen that fuckin brony stuff where people get teleported to pony world as horses gf is obsessed with that kinda thing but that's TERRIFYING if i woke up as a horse id fuckin die of a heart attack
46. How desperate would you have to be to lie to, steal from, injure, or murder another person? Do you do any of those things regularly?
- i like the implication that i would admit to murdering ppl on a regular basis
47. Do you have any scars? How did you get them?
- it's so fucked up i got this scar on my face and it's so bad bc I don't even scar that easy like i get into fights my entire life but i only got one scar just bc some weeb tried to kill me. like ok
48. Say someone has mistreated you in some form. Would you immediately lose your temper, hold a grudge, or simply let it go?
- you wouldnt believe my epic power to do all of those simaltaneusly
49. How do you deal with physical and mental pain?
- max volume noise nothing can hurt me if the Loud
50. What is your ideal place to live?
- never thought abt it tbh ig anywhere with my partners
51. What was your childhood like?
- just 18 years of stupid therapy programs and stupid special ed classes and ppl telling me how to think and how to act and like I was 4 years old forever i don't careeee
52. What is your favorite kind of weather?
- i think snow is pretty
53. How important to you is friendship? What about romance?
- i think they're both pretty great but idk i feel like urself should be most important bc idk shit happens and ppl leave so if you dont like yourself youre just gonna be stuck with some miserable loser who doesnt have any friends as ur only company
54. Have any disabilities, weaknesses, or allergies?
- i feel like in a hypothetical situation i would be pretty weak to godzilla
55. Whatā€™s your favorite thing to eat?
- SPICY FOOOOOOOD my spice tolerance fucks hard i will drink hot sauce. right now holdbon
56. Do you have kids? If not, do you picture yourself ever having them?
- could you fucking imagine.
57. How well can you sing?
- idk but i like it
58. Are you particularly confident? Does your confidence level change if less people are around?
- if nobody got me i know i got me
59. Do you like shopping?
- delivery apps were invented for a reason
60. How do you interact with strangers?
- tbh i usually just tune out anyone that's not talking to me LMAO
61. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you loved?
- not like perminently
62. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
- don't like this question
63. If you could meet anyone from the past or future, who would it be?
- fuckkkkk my gf isn't home rn can I pick her
64. If a genie granted you three wishes, what would they be?
- money bigass house and then I wouldn't use the last one so we could just vibe forver
65. Do you like attention?
- ask pico
66. Are you glad Iā€™ve run out of questions to ask?
- ig bc im puttin off chores ily though
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noodle-slurp Ā· 2 years ago
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UuuuuUUUUHU part 7
Idk what im doing anymore. Brain dieded------
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The giant returns to sleep soon after they return to the cave. How he manages to pass out so quickly is beyond them, but they suppose they wouldn't have issues sleeping if they were a massive man-eating monster either. Despite the many scars on his tan face, he manages to look almost peaceful like this. It's all too easy to forget he's a predator that will likely eat them once he wakes.
Almost.
They try to be quiet at first, napping off and on until noon to not risk waking the giant, but eventually, they become restless. Dreams shift into nightmares and they find themselves unwilling to close their eyes again. They lay there, anxious, marinating in their morbid imagination of the future - a future of heat, of darknessā€¦of acid.
Eventually, they roll over and begin to distract themselves with digging in the endless pile of junk he had collected. A lot of it was camping equipment and moth-eaten clothes, but there was also jewelry, trinkets, flashlights, and carved animals as big as their own head. The carvings looked similar to the ones he wore on his poncho, though, somehow, this one seemed unfinishedā€¦
They become curious, suddenly. They'd never really seen the details of the giant before today - the times they'd met him prior - brief and often dark.
They tilt their head at the sleeping giant, gauging how asleep he might be. It's difficult to tell with his size, but his breath was shallow enough. They hoped.
They creep forward, eyes darting to his face with each step, and pause roughly ten feet away. They scan the totems woven into the giants poncho, all of them crudely detailed down to the last feather, scale and hair. Some of them were more bleached than the others, faded and stained in a way resembling bone. Maybe it was boneā€¦
A clawed hand reaches up and lazily plops itself on top of them, knocking them on their back and leaving them breathless. The giant exhales deeply, his warm breath washing over them like a wave. Tired light-green eyes open to stare down at them, and all they can do is stare back, breathless.
"You're being too noisy." He murmurs.
Truthfully, he hadn't been asleep to begin with. It was far too difficult to find rest with someone else in his cave - especially when that someone else was a human. He had never been around a human like this. He had eaten every single one he had encountered in his life - and all of them had been delicious. This one was no exceptionā€¦
It'd be so easy to swallow them downā€¦
"Sorry." They practically squeak, too scared to say much else.
He inhales and exhales with a sleepless grunt. "It's ok" He decides with a teasing chuckle, ignoring the itch to taste them. "If I wanted quiet, I could just eat you."
He wanted to.
They take this more as a threat than a tease. "I doubt that'd make me quieter" they say tightly, clinging to his fingers as if they'd protect them.
"Wanna test that?" He offers, heavily considering doing it anyway. It wasn't that he was mad at them, they were just so tempting and he was so, so hungry.
They balk and pale. "Not really. No."
He hums and closes his eyes. He pulls them closer until they were pressed against his nose and cheek. Stars they smelled so good. Their fear was like a savory spice, delicate and enticing - the hands pushing against his grip an exciting temptation.
He simply lays like that a moment, slowly inhaling their scent and enjoying the sensation of their squirms. The temptation to pull them inside his mouth was strong and a thick strand of drool escaped to dribble down his chin. The strand of saliva soaks into their shirt, he doesn't even need to look to read the fear in their eyes.
Their heart hammers in their chest as they lay against his face. His skin is hot on their hands -toasty, though they knew he could get a lot warmer - especially on the inside. They remember how to breathe and take a hitched breath. "I'm -uh -uncomfortableā€¦" they manage to voice, feeling like they might just choke.
He hums again, thinking, his breath warming them until their clothes became clingy. Humans were so small and soft, delicious and -
He pulls away, allowing them to scramble backwards from him.
"Keep it down - and don't stare at me when I'm sleeping. It's weird." He grumbles, curling back in on himself.
"I was looking at your poncho. The things on it." They clarify, not wanting him to think them strange.
"Hm? 'The things'?" He cracks his eyes open and reaches idly up to the trinkets on his clothing. "Ah. These. They're just some carvings." He breathes out, closing his eyes again.
"Did you make them?" They ask curiously, not sure where else he would have gotten them from.
"Most of em."
"How?" They ask, baffled.
He furrows his brows and cracks his eyes to look at them like they were stupid. "I carved them?"
They tilt their head. "But how? With what?"
He stares at them in baffled silence for way too long before realizing humans lacked the tools giants did. He held out his hand palm first and flexed his tanin-stained claws. "These."
They take a wary step back from his hand, eyes darting between his claws and his face. They weren't sure if they had pestered him with too many questions again, and they had no desire to test that patience. When no grumpy words follow the displayed claws, they allow themselves to relax and marvel at them. The claws were easily as long as their forearm and as sharp looking as a knife - given what they'd seen giants do with them thus far, they may as well have been blades.
"That must take a lot of practice." They marvel, trying to imagine the giant pricking the tiny details into bone and wood.
He grunts and retracts his hand. "Lotta patience, mostly."
"Patience takes practice." They offer. "You're really good at it. I like how you do feathers." They marvel openly, eyes flicking back to a carved bird on his poncho.
He squints at them. Truly, he isn't sure how he feels about that compliment - good, proud, baffled, dismissive, - but outwardly he can only express silent, furrowed browed thought. They read it as annoyance.
He does not continue and they are unsure how else to push the conversation - or if they even should. They feel they are bothering him. They fidget idly, thinking. "Sorryā€¦for waking you again." They finally mumble.
"Mm? I told you, it's fine." He dismisses, rolling over with his back to them. "Just find somethin' to do. I got books in a corner if you like that kinda stuff."
They tilt their head. "Books? Where?"
He lets out a long, exasperated breath through his nose, eager to close his eyes again. He gestures vaguely over his shoulder. "Corner with the red tent."
They follow the half-assed directions, squinting into the dim depths of the cavern. It takes them an awkward amount of time to spot the red cloth, but there it was, half set up as if someone might still be sleeping in it, dented and ripped and - stainedā€¦but mostly intact in a dark corner. Inside was a pile of books, weathered and warped from the elements. The genres varied from survival guides to romance, but the majority tended to be fishing magazines. They find a few Jack London books and settle themselves atop a pile of sleeping bags to read.
They struggle,to sit still, to focus on the letters on the page. Their mind buzzes with anxiety of the future and urges them to run awayā€¦But, assuming they made it past the giant, where would they run away too? They could try a multitude of directions, surely one would be a safe bet, there couldn't be man-eating monsters -everywhere-.
But what about gas?
Their heart sinks as they recall trucks need fuel to run - and theirs was at half. They weren't sure how far they could get on half a tank, but the idea of being slapped in the middle of nowhere with no supplies, no visible towns or knowing that section of land for foraging, terrified them.
The only thing worse than being eaten alive, might just be withering away in the wilds, bit by miserable bit, until delirium and sickness took them. They'd had heat stroke and various other ailments associated with being outside too long, and, between the two agonies, acid definitely seemed more merciful. At least it'd be over in a matter of hours vs days/weeksā€¦.
A morbid assuranceā€¦
They lay there, book open in one hand, staring at the pages blankly. They can't stop thinking about what had happened over the past week(s) - or the various ways they were likely to die very soon. It nagged at them, grabbed their focus and pulled them under, drowning out even the faintest hope.
Their injured arm itches and they have to resist the urge to scratch it. It'd healed well despite the damage to it, but still not well enough to encourage them to mess with it. They remember the feel of the light flutter of unpleasant bubbles frothing and popping over them - of acid worming it's way into the wounds.
And they remember the days they were weak and in pain from an infected cut.
Being eaten was a mercy.
They frown at themselves, unhappy and glare at the page harder, willing the words to make sense.
He doesn't sleep.
He can't.
He lays there with his eyes closed, hyper aware of every shift of movement or turning of a page the human made. He imagines their taste on his tongue, the sensation of dragging them down his throat, and, finally, of their weight settling in his stomach. It's so insanely tempting.
His stomach clenched, begging him to fill it.
What would it matter if he ate one more lousy human? There were millions of them on this chunk of dirtā€¦.millions. In fact, if he paid attention, he was pretty certain he could smell a camp on the breeze, distant, but there. What did it matter if he ate this one?
They were different.
He wanted to eat them, to drag them down to his core and - and what? He wasn't sure. He didn't want to hurt themā€¦which was an odd thought to have, but also there was no way this would last. He was a monster - they were a human. Mortal enemies. Sure, they had helped him and even been relatively friendly towards him, even seemed more fascinated than scared of him at first, but that had been on their terms - and now things were different.
He wasn't sure what had changed to make the human more scared of him - they certainly hadn't been anywhere near afraid the last time they metā€¦.
Though, last time, he had eaten themā€¦He supposed that may make a difference in their opinions of himā€¦.
He inhales deeply, holds it, and huffs it out in frustration.
Why did he even want to keep them anyway? To have someone to talk to? Stupid. He'd done just fine alone for decades now. He didn't need themā€¦.
He rolls over and stares at the human in the corner. They had sprawled out on his garbage and resigned themselves to staring at the stalagtites above in frustration. They were anxiousā€¦and upset.
It'd be so easy to just reach over and-
He rolls back over and curls himself up tight, frustrated in his confusion. He was a giant, this should have been a simple thing, a natural thing.
Giants eat humans. They were human. Simple.
There's a low groan from his guts.
The human goes still as a statue - he doesn't even hear them breathing anymore. He tries to ignore it.
Part of him wants to believe he can keep them. That maybe they could be a ā€¦sorta companionā€¦like a dog. Like a pet. His partner would have found this amusingā€¦They would have humored him and told him how much responsibility a human is, how much care they need and how their temperment was important for matching their life style.
He closes his eyes and imagines them here. It's bittersweet, but soothing. His partner would have wanted to test for tempermentā€¦maybe he could do something similarā€¦.
Yesā€¦
He could 'test for temperment' and if they couldn't handle his life styleā€¦maybe it would be best for both of them if he just got it over with.
There is smoke on the wind, faint but present. Someone, somewhere is camping, doing their best to survive in these new wilds.
His stomach growls impatiently and he chooses to ignore it. He can hunt later
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moonrisecoeur Ā· 1 year ago
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GIRLIEEE please dont remind me how out of my age range leon is šŸ˜­āœ‹
also idk most of those artists songs ngl i be living under a rock but idk ! he might!! he seems like an open to different music types of person to me (i am one hehdhdh) so i could see him having a pretty large listening range. imo his fav genre is grunge/rock but ngl. i could see him liking the early 2000s white girl music HSJSDHSNNDKAKSNSB, and theres a few linkin park songs that come to mind...idk about more recent music tho LMAO my brain is too tired to think of any. tbh ppl should include more older music too when talking abt him, actually i just want to encourage ppl to have a larger music palette bc its šŸ‘Œ
also GRRR RRRRGHHHR im so envious of you. literally none of my friends are into resident evil and none of them wanna hear me horny talk about leon šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ im dying here. im literally screaming into the void abt how badly i wanna top him.
ngl i got into resi because uh. leon was literally the only resident evil character ive known about (i watched a lot of like lore/glitch videos when i was a teen) and resi 4 was super popular still. i always thought he was cute but never got into the series bc. horror games scary (they still are but i tough it out for my pookie wookie šŸ˜¤). but like one of my friends plays dead by daylight a lot and i wanted to look into it bc i like spending time w ppl and. i saw leon was a playable character and i bought it immediately. AINT EVEN KNOW THE MAN MUCH AND I WAS ALREADY DOWN HORRENDOUS !? HAD ME BY THE THROAT FROM THE START !! anyways his whimpers in dbd-
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my guy iā€™m sorryyy if it makes u feel any better leon is also more than half my age BUT itā€™s ok tho!! heā€™s fictional so in my head heā€™s actually still 21 like in re2 hehehe
NO BC UR SO RIGHT HE GETS DOWN TO 2000s WHITE GIRL MUSIC !! AND SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK !! šŸ’„šŸ’„šŸ’„
heā€™s (my friend not leon) literally my best friend in the whole world i love him so much he got me into resident evil and i got him into mortal kombat so it works out !! but itā€™s okayā€¦ do u know why itā€™s ok??? bc iā€™m ur friend now :)
i mostly got into re because i thought leon and carlos were hot letā€™s be so for real but i bought resident evil 2 when it was on sale for 10 bucks and played it and fell in love!! i like the action and horrorness of the games, i killing zombies and mr x scaring the shit out of me itā€™s so fun!! but i totally get why people donā€™t really like it and are just into re for the lore and the characters
leon dbd whimpers help me sleep at night they were IN MY SPOTIFY WRAPPED Yā€™ALL IM SO SANE
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lightgriffinsect Ā· 2 years ago
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HELLOOOOOOOOOO
God am I tired rn :)
Good news is I finished all other reminders for my beloved moots :)
Ngl I do feel like I need reminders sometimes, but idk.
Either way itā€™s kinda late? Been really tired. And I mean, really, really tired. Finna sleep after this.
I suggest checking tagnuggets blog if you wanna see extra quotes
SPEAKING OF QUOTES,
A, to B to help them in a play: Donā€™t worry about being scary, you donā€™t have to worry about that if youā€™re just being yourself
B: WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN-
A: you suck man
B: I can read that in 3 different ways and they are all highly discomforting.
Lmao I love my friends.
Theyā€™re idiots that I love so much wheeee-
*Waltzes off*
OH AND MORE SHAMELESS SELF PROMO OF MY BENDY BLOG @bendy-bendo-bendiful-boyo AND ALSO MY RECENT SMALL WRITING PROJECT HAHAHA
Ok imma stop the self promos im sorry-
Skjdkjdjkd I love these ones XD
I will take a look at tagnugget's blog, ty for that advice! Please also get some sleep.
YEAH IT'S THE BENDEH BOYO
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stewpid-soup Ā· 2 years ago
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VENT CW!! (I think itā€™s just gonna be chronic pain talks at 2 am again- woops-)
I AM SO UPSET- MY INSURANCE DENIED PAYING FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO GO TO THIS PHYSICAL THERAPY INPATIENT WHICH, WHO KNOWS? MAYBE Iā€™LL FEEL BETTER-! BUT ITS JUST SO FRUSTRATING BC NOTHING ELSE HAS BEEN WORKING AND MY PRIMARY DOCTOR SAID SHE HAD A PATIENT WITH SIMILAR ISSUES WHO DID AN INPATIENT AND IT HELPED A LOT. LIKE BRUH, THIS COULD BE THE FIRST STEP TO GETTING BETTER BUT NOOOO, INSURANCE IS A BITCH
and ik, there are benefits to insurance and everything and blah blah blah- but i just wanna complain lolll
but my mom is trying to appeal to the insurance or sumn and get it so they pay. which means we need my pain doctors to say ā€œhey we think this could helpā€ and also i have to like- qualify for it or something? so tmrow my appointment is for a kindā€™ve check in to see if the PT inpatient might work :/
anyways, none of my previous pills have worked so iā€™m gonna start doing (MEDICALLY PRESCRIBED) CBD. I did it for the first time today and yk, the first doses we do will be with as little head change as possible- ngl all it did for me was maybe calm me down a bit and just made my body feel tingly on top of the pain?? idk how to describe it- I didnā€™t expect it to work immediately, obviously, but like always i just really wanted there to be at least some little minuscule difference. honestly it doesnā€™t matter what kind of difference, because then at least we know what does and doesnā€™t work
im just tired man. and sure it could be because im fucking up my sleep schedule but i donā€™t sleep good even when i had been sleeping at 10 pm and waling up at 9 am every morning (after waking up at 7 to take meds). but still, i feel tired when iā€™m doing nothing! and i feel so useless because of that.
Like, mothers day is coming up sunday. and i live my parents, i have good relationships with both of them individually and together, so ofc i make a card every year for them. I love doing it, because their reactions are worth it. But with my pain, it makes it a million times harder to do things like that because not only will i be lacking motivation and energy but also my arms are gonna just be in a shit ton more pain after doing that (and iā€™ve done this several times before, so this isnā€™t just based off of the fact that im in even more pain whenever i move- my body has definitely proven this)
shanamxmcn honestly idk what makes sense anymore rn. im exhausted and i have to wake up at 8 tmrow for the doctors appointment and im not excited to deal with the gd parking at childrenā€™s hospital -_-
wish me luckkk lol
love u guys and take care <3
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moonwabbitt Ā· 6 days ago
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idek what my brain wants rn
i told my counselor how i feel directionless and idk what to do, or who to talk to, and she gave me good advice about breaking down the questions i wanna ask and to whom and seeing if that helps narrow down my task, but honestly i feel so defeated
i feel bad about constantly talking about how depressed and tired and broke i am, and im just tired of living like this
i feel bad depending on my friends what seems like constantly and just,
it feels like im in a situation of my own making so i need to deal with it, but i don't want to deal with it, and it feels like im tightroped in what to do honestly and idk if im even explaining it right because its not even a tightrope more like im tightened in a rope of knots like ive fallen in a web of choices and decisions ya know
and like my counselor, bless her soul, was like maybe you need comfort n rest when i talked about my struggle with feeling the need to be productive but feeling tired and burnt out and then doing nothing and feeling bad for doing nothing, and just i want to fall in the comfort rn but my brain is going a million miles but not really saying anything, its like a buzzing, i can't shake
like, i want to do things i enjoy, i want to listen to things but my brain is like no, no that, not right now, but its like okay then what then??? and its just trying to appease the mentally ill part of you but that part of you is mentally ill and there is no appeasement to be made,,,and idk i want to end on a brighter note, on a more thoughtproviking statement or something but im just,,its 2am and im trying to sleep but my brain is very much Awake but my body is tired and im just up late thinking okay what do i need to do tmrw, what do i need to do monday, this is what i gotta do, but this is what i wanna do, but also i don't wanna do anything so like man
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nardonotes Ā· 25 days ago
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4 nov '24
11:38pm
i did it! (one class)... i didn't sleep and went to my first class today !! it really wasn't that bad and it flew by until the very last part because i was so tired... ą“¦ąµą“¦ą“æ ą¼Žąŗ¶ā€æą¼Žąŗ¶ ) but during my 3 hr break i took a nap AND NEVER WOKE UP!!!! (*ź’¦ąŗ“ź’³ź’¦ąŗµ) i ended up waking up RIGHT WHEN MY CLASS ENDED!!! man,... whatever. im not too mad about it,, im more mad about other things that happened about my documents and my allowance and stuff that i dont even wanna get into because it's really frustrating.. -_-"
also kinda mad i didn't get to cut my hair and buy saline solution for my piercing (which is doing really really well actually,, no bruising, barely and scabs or bleeding or anything like that. it doesn't hurt so much but i dont touch it AT ALL.., only to clean it twice a day with a q-tip and drying it. no swelling either!! soooo good he did such a good job :D) but yeah no i need a haircut BAD! my hair is literally a helmet rn (įµ•ā€”į“—ā€”)
yeah so im not too stressed about school anymore! because after today,, i realised i am just really anxious and paranoid about being behind idk.... probably cause my last college was actually horrible and was a DO IT URSELF UR GNA FAIL NOW THAT YOU'VE MISSED THIS CLASS!! kind of college.. ( ź©œ įƅ ź©œ;)ā­ ā­ so stressful and draining.
uhh.... what else..... tomorrow is literally like 4 hours of drawing which i feel like is gna feel like forever (ć£-,-)恤 because i literally have no inspiration or bother to draw and be creative idk,, idgaf anyways.
it's also my sister's bf's birthday today!! just had to mention that lol. ok im going to rest and play apex. goodnight!! hopefully tomorrow is a better day for me (ć£- ā€ø - Ļ‚)
song of the day: Hummingbird by Roy Blair š“…° š“…¬ š“…­ š“…® š“…Æ
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quodekash Ā· 1 year ago
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EPISODE 2 BAD BUDDY OS2 LETS GOOOOO im so freaking excited holy hellĀ 
i still cant believe that patpran and earthmix are going to INTERACT WITH EACH OTHER??? AND EXIST IN THE SAME SPACE???? HOLY HELLLLLLĀ 
wait hang onĀ 
will we get longtae?? pls give us longtae i need to see my boyĀ 
WAIT hang on how does this work. how do bad buddy and 1000stars exist in the same space if drake plays korn and also rang. i need to make some kind of murder board of the connections between shows holy hellĀ 
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tut tut, phu, you need to take care of yourself for goodness sakeĀ 
pran is too autistic for this, he doesnt know how to Social Situation and communicate what he was actually trying to say and now they think he wants to be a teacherĀ 
also im gonna slide past the phutian relationship problems bc i dont want to think about it. my dads are not getting a divorce, and thats finalĀ 
hang on. thereā€™s new kids now??? where the hell did they come from?Ā 
tianā€™s teacher frustration is so realĀ 
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autismĀ 
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HEYĀ 
LOOK AT THATĀ 
ACTUAL REPRESENTATION OF SOME KINDĀ 
THATS AWESOMEĀ 
I KNEW HE WASNT NEUROTYPICALĀ 
FJEHSBGKVJREBĀ 
i know ocd is an anxiety disorder but thereā€™s a lot of overlapping symptoms and apparently autistic people are more likely to experience ocdĀ 
and even if its just ocd, im still allowed to hc him as autisticĀ 
but either way HELL YEAH REPRESENTATION AND ITS CANONICAL AND ITS NOT JUST IN HIS HABITS ITS AN ACTUAL CANONICAL DIAGNOSIS GJERBDHBDRTĀ 
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MY BOY!Ā 
(definitely didnt completely forget about him)Ā 
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his gaydar is going off so much he can smell it (i made the screenshot too big and now phupha in the foreground is making me laugh so hard omg- i swear its the funniest thing ever. im probably tired. its 1:30am)Ā 
THE LOOKS PATPRAN GAVE EACH OTHER WHILE PHUTIAN WERE INTERACTING- THE GAYDARS THE GAYDARSĀ 
(yes, i know they already know about phutian bc of tianā€™s online diary thingy, but it still counts)Ā 
i wanna read this diary so bad but i cant read thai. and also idk where i would find it. its probably online somewhere. it might be a merch thing. who knows manĀ 
GEHRKDBGV THE FLASHBACKS WHILE HES READINGĀ 
IM CRYINGĀ 
ā€œwhy would a good guy come to watch me take a shower?ā€ THE LOOKS PATPRAN JUST GAVE EACH OTHER- OMG I LOVE THIS SO MUCHĀ 
THE LOOKS THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE EXCHANGEĀ 
ITS SO FUNNYĀ 
I LOVE THISĀ 
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iconicĀ 
i love everything about this so so so muchĀ 
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the amount of joy that just this one image brings me? helpĀ 
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ive been wondering why they keep making those moviesĀ 
wait hang onĀ 
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guys i think we might actually be onto somethingĀ 
on another but related note: what do you guys spend 25 minutes doing at 2 in the morning when you should be sleeping? cos apparently i make beautiful atrocities like that.Ā 
anyway.Ā 
theyre like little kids,Ā ā€œhe liked me firstā€Ā ā€œNO HE LIKED ME FIRSTā€Ā 
this is starting to sound very familiarĀ 
pran screaming at the waterfall reminds me of patpran screaming off the top of the hill at the beachĀ 
THEY ARE PLAYING IN THE WATERRRR I LOVE THEMMMMMMĀ 
ā€œi think they kissedā€Ā ā€œagreedā€Ā ā€œthey certainly didā€Ā ā€œi agreeā€ okay they didnt but they absolutely should have and we all wanted them toĀ 
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they so in loveeee i love themmmmmĀ 
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IM SCREAMING AS QUIETLY AS I POSSIBLY CAN, HOLY HELL THE FREAKING PARALLELSĀ 
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hah, you bloody americans, they probably had to google what 18ĀŗC is in fahrenheit, but i, a superior australian, know that that is... warmer than it has been recently. its currently 13Āŗ. its really weird, im not used to it getting this cold, even in winter, and winter only technically started two days ago. anyway, enough about abnormal australian weather, back to patpranĀ 
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i love them so muchĀ 
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pat, i-Ā 
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HELL YESĀ 
OISHIIIIIĀ 
FINALLYĀ 
the kid demanding payment through sips of oishi tea? thats my kinda styleĀ 
id adopt that kid if i had to.Ā 
i hate kidsĀ 
but ice tea? it bonds people.Ā 
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lucky kidĀ 
i rly like this karaoke idea, i was wondering how they were gonna incorporate the ost but i guess patā€™s gonna sing itĀ 
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Pā€™AUUUUĀ 
I THOUGHT I RECOGNISED HIM IN THE BACKGROUND EARLIER AND I WAS RIGHTĀ 
HELLO Pā€™AU HOW ARE YOUĀ 
ā€œactually, my boyfriend and i also fought about who fell for the other first. but in the end, it isnt important. what matters more is that we love each otherā€ AWWWWBHFGHBRĀ 
OHĀ 
ITS THE SONGĀ 
ITS THAT SONGĀ 
GEIURHGUKERJBGHJKĀ 
YAYYYY PHUTIAN ARE SNUGGLINGGGGĀ 
IM SMILING SO HARD ITS DIFFICULT TO SEEĀ 
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i love himĀ 
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THE SIGNATURE FISTBUMP RJDGBJRĀ 
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i love themĀ 
NOOOOO THEY STILL HAVENT MADE UP, GOSH FREAKING DARNNITĀ 
ooooo phu vs pat drinking challenge, thisā€™ll be funĀ 
i really like how the young ones are giving advice to the older ones for a change, its very nice. and also just goes to show how powerful patpran areĀ 
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omg this kid is everywhere, i love himĀ 
the pure RELIEF when they both see that they are, in fact, wearing pants.Ā 
BRO THAT WAS STRESSFULĀ 
PRAN NEARLY DIEDĀ 
its so funny to me how intense the music is rnĀ 
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OF FREAKING COURSEĀ 
well at least we know that means weā€™ll get more patpran next week, we dont have to say goodbye to them todayĀ 
anyway that was wonderful, its 3am and i feel fine currently, cant wait to feel like a dead banana peel tomorrow, goodnight folks, see you next time!Ā 
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hiii-c Ā· 5 months ago
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im so happi he is staying with me i love him and only could ever love him he shows me so much love and care ive never received in all of these ways i never could want everyone else cos they wouldnt be like him and hes so man i love him i dont know why ive been so mean i been taking my inner emotions out on him and its not right im not feeling insecure im having better thoughts and feelings i want to the bestest cutest for him i love the way he touches me and grabs me hes so special hes so one of a kind and him i just want him forever but i know i can be too much if he got tired of me i hope he would return if he left even though id be so sad and heartbroken i would wait for him because i love him im crazy for him HIM semaj mybaby mt lovely man my savior sweetheart my beloved majestic man i will always feel this way i am very loving to the extremes even if i come off as a mean ass bitch and rude asf im not that way im just really possessive because i canā€™t ever be with nobdy else but him id die and turn into top 3 craziest people alive bcos me without sexy man my sexy im done for he does so much for me other than helping me with my house and if i need something he helps me mentally i know he probably doesnā€™t think that becos i messed everything up bad its all because i felt so angry with myself about being terrible to him but doing that to myself is also terrible to him i made everything worse but i promise ive learned and i really am not going to do it again because i need you and i really do want to be your peace you work so hard and do so much and always have so much to worry about i donā€™t want you to be worrying extra about me thats not fair to my mr does it all i want to be able to be calm and comfort for him and not stress and anxietyā€™s because of me i will change for him bcos i only want him or like i said i will go fuzzytube cos semaj just so amazing like i could never find anything better and i dont care to look i dont want what i have with him to end i fuckinf love this dude omg im going to be so good ive had alot of thinking and reality checks and ive been so crazy i feel so bad but i wont beat myself up cos ive moved on from it and im doing good with being chill i want to be the most silly chilli hahaha idk thats so lame whatever i juzt said ans i miss him so much smelling the pillow he sleep w he doesnā€™t know im so insane over him but maybe thats scary and weird so lemme chill i just mmm could suck his balls rn suck all the hair and sweat off them ans choke on his secyyummibigthickdick and wellwoa lemme sleep im getting out of hand but he could put his hand to use and send me a video of him :p i have no words for everything i just wrote i just could go on forever like semaj really be consuming my brain im happy im doinf good w money and now i can get him car stuff or help him save for a car :ppppp omg he would be so happt i want him to be so happy so it sounds great hes great and he deserves the world and more than that cos hes so babayyy i wanna lick him down and also hug him and also just stuff him in my butt ;3 anyways idk but yayyyyy semaj is my boyfriend im squirting just knowing it and im #blessednotstressed
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greetings my dear zadie šŸ˜ i missed u sm (sorry for the disappearance- i really missed filling ur inbox like this pls donā€™t mind mešŸ’”) & i genuinely have no idea where to begin from because i just got caught up with like 30 chapters of strictly business and i haVENT BEEN SLEEPING SINCE YESTERDAY BECAUSE I CANT CLOSE MY PHONE šŸ§ā€ā™€ļø first of all what the FUCKKKKK IS GOING AWNNNNNšŸ˜Ø like what the hell what the fuck the whole family situation is so heartbreaking then we have the fucking mind blowing jaw dropping earth shattering identity crisis inducing universe colliding inducing smut to have ever grazed tumblr idk if itā€™s the severe daddy issues but my GOD thewayjongseongisaservicedommakesmegentearup also can i just say as someone whoā€™s been reading your masterpieces since hype boy i absolutely adore. like ADORE šŸ§Žā€ā™€ļø the way you write your smuts they always like ooze out love and i adore it sm like itā€™s like that one meme where u know itā€™s not a quick nut but smth made with love & care and thatā€™s exactly how you be writing your shit dawg like youā€™re so talented?? out here making me close my phone every 5 mins just to giggle and calm myself down. now when i tell you my legs r aching bcs of the amount of hours i just spent swinging them while giggling because of the shit i was reading for HOURS BRO. šŸ˜€ like iā€™m so obsessed with how you write i want to kiss & appreciate each every single one of your neuron cells and axons for connecting to eachother to form such beautiful ideas mamas. anywho back to the story FUCK YOU SHIAH UGLY ASS PREHISTORIC ASS BITCH THE FUCK IS YOUR GODDAMN PROBLEM DAMN. like youā€™re genuinely a miserable grandma if youā€™re out here in your 30s or smth pushing 89 and youā€™re bullying & talking shit about a girl whoā€™s 21 šŸ’€ like girl go teach at unis what u learned about dinosaurs since youā€™ll be talking straight up from experience. i bet yo ass she was there at the last supper arriving with her horse and all that like GIR- sorry excuse me for the disrespect fr šŸ™šŸ¼GREAT-GREAT-GRANDMA. GET YOUR GODDAMN SHIT TOGETHER AND BACK THE FUCK AWF šŸ¤ŗ anywho now that we talked about the literal cause of the big bang theory letā€™s go talk about jongseong šŸ¤­ no because i love this man with my whole entire heart i just- i <3 mature men <333 heā€™s so cool & mature & understanding & itā€™s making him so much more sexier than he already is itā€™s actually driving me crazy because wHERE do i find a replica of the man i just read about. like sir. SIR im losing my mINDDDD šŸ¤øā€ā™€ļøšŸ•³ļø and then going to yn i love her sm :( sheā€™s so smart & kind and she did not deserve anything that happened to her sheā€™s such a sweet girl i canā€™t do this i canā€™t stand kind hearted people getting their souls hurt like this like pls she deserves sm better (iā€™m literally coming for you shiah. sleep with one eye fucking OPEN.) iā€™m so glad she has jimin & aeri w her i love them all so much and nayeon (btw making nayeon jongseongā€™s older sister single-handedly saved approximately 26392 lives and prevented 6 million deaths im telling u, ur mind? legendary.) and then we have seoulā€™s fav four oh mY GOD i love jaeyun sm. heā€™s so hilarious like bros always speaking & asking the ACTUAL questions heā€™s so funny i love him sm & hoon is just hooning heā€™s a bad bitch & a serious mf i love him sm for that fr always serving shit and all that a fucking icon heā€™s so real šŸ’Æ and oh lord 30 year old hee? is going down in the history books i fear šŸšØ u making hee this attractive right after poison is just so ooooooo i wanna fight you so bad (w kisses & hugs duh!) but like gen. easily one of the best stories iā€™ve ever came across, easily one of the best authors/writers iā€™ve had the chance to read the works of and witness with my own eyes šŸ™šŸ¼ like thank u so much for your service fr i love u sm pls take care of urself & donā€™t tire yourself out (iā€™m ignoring all events that took place in the most recent chapter because no.) sending u sm love & kisses zadie ! <33
actually no fuck that what the fuck do you mean the engagement is ACTUALLY GONNA HAPPEN. didnā€™t jongseong already put that bitch in her place like GRANDMA???? R U NOT EMBARRASSED THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING. chasing after a dude when he literally told u all ur shitty fantasies AINT GONNA HAPPEN and someone who put u in ur goddamn place and SO OBVIOUSLY HAS SOMEONE ELSE HES INTERESTED IN (WHICH TALK YOUR FUCKING SHIT JONGSEONG šŸ—£ļøšŸ’Æ SPEAK UR TRUTH DONT LET THEM SILENCE YOU!!) IS SO LIKE ??? girl stand up fr youā€™re famous ig & hella rich u can find someone else leave my babies alone i beg. and oooo girl jongseongā€™s dad fr about to make me become a lawyer to jail his stupid ahh alongside ynā€™s father (and her brothers) šŸ‘©ā€āš–ļø now one thing shitty men will always excel at is being a fucking asshole to everyone including your family yet excluding your side chicks! like at your prehistoric grown goddamn age youā€™re gonna force your son to marry someone he doesnā€™t even like šŸ˜§? shitā€™s wild fr. anyways fuck you shiah fuck every single dad in the story and fuck you shiah (pt2) cuz u ainā€™t SHIT. you will never be SHIT with your horrendous pick me attitude and with your personality thatā€™s literally revolved around being a trophy wife (and being in a marriage with a man who doesnā€™t even want you??? like do u have no shame. no self respect. like idgaf if this is about business and allat the man DOESNT WANT YOU šŸ«¤ get that shit in your thick ass head grandma) like that shitā€™s crazy and fuck that account that posted that shit i hope ynā€™s okay and jay makes shit up for her cuz come on now šŸ˜
-ā‰ļø <3
MY BABY IS BACKKKKKK HI BABY šŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗ you have no idea how much i giggled and smiled seeing you in my inbox imagain i MISSED YOUUUUU and hope life has been treating you well baby šŸ„ŗšŸ’ž pls tell me you havent been overworking yourself or i will have to fight you šŸ’”
and please the way i couldn't even hold back my ugly laughs while reading bc you expressed my thoughts and feelings about yoo shiah in strictly business too spot on šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
when i tell you the part where you started complimenting me, the smau and my writing made me tear up like i dont think you guys know how much your words mean to me and i will forever keep them super close to my heart so thank you so, so much baby. sending you the fattest kiss right now pls accept šŸ„ŗšŸ’žšŸ©·šŸ’žšŸ©·šŸ’žšŸ©·
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